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hemelbeestje:

The story of my body & feelings & me; from being tiny and full of myself to being a teen and loathing myself to modelling nude as a side-job.

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batarde:

sometimes I come across an image here and think “that image and I go way back. that image used to by my livejournal icon.”

You and me both, bb. Sometimes I see familiar ages and wonder, “Where have I seen that before? Oh yeah, that was so and so’s lj icon for years.”


“People forget that a book or codex is a technology,” reminded ambient lit artist Tan Lin in a 2012 interview in the new media art publication Rhizome (so named after Deleuze and Guattari’s “image of thought” concept). Literary types privilege the book as the ultimate form for reading. To privilege the book as reading, though—to forget that it is a technology—is analogous to forgetting one has a body (something lit types are also wont to do), and to forget one has a body is to let it soften and lay to waste. When you recognize the book as technology, you realize that print and screen, like body and mind, are not mutually exclusive mediums, but that they are increasingly mutually influencing.
…I wrote about the Internet & book design for Hazlitt: http://www.randomhouse.ca/hazlitt/feature/internet-killed-books-save-reading


I’ve been thinking about this a lot since I first read it last week, and left a long-winded comment to that effect. I particularly think Iris and Anaïs would be intrigued…
“People forget that a book or codex is a technology,” reminded ambient lit artist Tan Lin in a 2012 interview in the new media art publication Rhizome (so named after Deleuze and Guattari’s “image of thought” concept). Literary types privilege the book as the ultimate form for reading. To privilege the book as reading, though—to forget that it is a technology—is analogous to forgetting one has a body (something lit types are also wont to do), and to forget one has a body is to let it soften and lay to waste. When you recognize the book as technology, you realize that print and screen, like body and mind, are not mutually exclusive mediums, but that they are increasingly mutually influencing.

…I wrote about the Internet & book design for Hazlitt: http://www.randomhouse.ca/hazlitt/feature/internet-killed-books-save-reading

I’ve been thinking about this a lot since I first read it last week, and left a long-winded comment to that effect. I particularly think Iris and Anaïs would be intrigued…

garconniere turns 5

I had recently been wondering just how long I’ve had this tumblr, and then ta-dam, la journée même, an email appears in my inbox telling me it’s been 5 years. Five!

The way I use my tumblr has dramatically changed over the years, mostly for the best. It started out as a curiosity (what is this thing), evolved into a cabinet of curosities (look at all these things/follow all the things/reblog all the things), and slowly evolved in to a great space where I could process, digest, discover incredible artists, and space out. At first, I couldn’t get enough. Today, I reblog far less content. Along the way I’ve had my share of feuds and unwarranted dramas, but it wouldn’t be an “online community” if that didn’t happen. I’ve also had very shortlived side blogs (food, home, love, if you’re curious) that Pinterest has since replaced.

So basically, if you’ve stuck around for the long haul that must mean you really like me?

Another thing that’s quite amusing about taking the time to absorb the idea of FIVE YEARS on this kind of overwhelming/chaotic platform is how rarely I do look in my archives… but today I did, and now I can point to markers of time… like, yes, I tagged photos I took of myself as self-portraits, up until I realized what GPOYW stood for (when did we decide to drop the W?), and now I’m not even in the #selfie game. And yes, pop culture shit of course, seeing how I was already crushing on Léa Seydoux before all the other queers. That I was sharing Twin Peaks screencaps before it started streaming on Netflix. But mostly it’s the way I wrote: how I can tell who I was writing for, who I was reblogging from and why… wierd feelings that stay with you.

One thing hasn’t changed: how much it means when just one person ”likes” something meaningful you wrote (or in that specific case, tried to write). When people send me emails when I sad-blog, just to check in.

…And we all know I like to reflect in list form.

Favourite Tumblrs (Or, Tumblrs I’ve been following for so long I can’t quite remember what my dashboard looked like without them)

  1. fette
  2. maddie
  3. dani
  4. meryem
  5. majestic/jessica (bcuz when 2 become 1)
  6. eline
  7. cassie
  8. anaïs
  9. look up look up
  10. material world
  11. queers for feminism
  12. beau travail

Best Tags:

I think it was Iris who first helped me discover how shitty Tumblr’s search function was, so that if I ever wanted to find anything ever again I had to get the hang of using tags. So here are some of the ones I go back to often, and that I think my readers/watchers/creepers might enjoy as well:

(A Handful of my) Most Popular Posts

Happy Birthday to my Tumblr.

hemelbeestje:

i live-tweeted studying late gothic art last night and it was pretty great bc i discovered so much more animals hidden in paintings already crowded by animals - beautiful. medieval depictions of animals are seriously my fave, let’s take a moment to revisit the best

i am now at the renaissance and all is dull except for botticelli, pray4me

LIVE-TWEETING while studying late gothic art. Winner at life.

Home from Sassyfrass Circus »

sassyfrasscircus:

Not to be all “oh hey internet buy things from me” but I’m seriously considering what body parts I can sell over here, and I just opened a web store. So you know, if you want to help a teacher out and also own some art that might one day be worth at least the same as you’re buying it for. Like ABBA says, “take a chance on me.”

I highly endorse Sassyfrass Circus for all your queer zine needs. Full disclosure, I contributed to “Long Distance" so you should buy it because… if you’re following me you know I’m awesome and you want to read my shit.

Help me study and do research in Brazil next semester! »

plastickitten:

Hey everybody! I’m in a bit of a tight spot.

I was awarded 10,000 dollars to go study abroad in Bahia, Brazil for next semester. It wasn’t enough, but it was significant enough since I had 3000 saved and was expecting 3,000 more dollars from my university’s study abroad office (they actually told me it was guaranteed as they have to provide aid that is significant enough to make an impact on my budget). I also applied for other groups that could give me aid, like my uni’s Honors Program (in which the director told me I would be granted admission as long as my grades each semester were good [because I received poor grades doing STEM freshman and sophomore year]).

Of course, those two didn’t pan out. Both groups backtracked on their earlier statements and either provided me a reduced amount of funding or rejected me outright because I didn’t not have an overall GPA of 3.8 or higher (which will never happen, even though my GPAs in History and Latin American studies are 4.0s).

I have looked for other sources of funding, but also run into other problems:

  • scholarships that I can apply to (which are only three) award the funding money while I’m abroad, which is after the money is due (if I’m able to get them).
  • there aren’t that many scholarships in my area (Latin America) because Spanish and Portuguese are no longer deemed critical languages by the State Dept and CIA, in contrast to languages in Central, South, and East Asia.
  • my deptartments have tried their hardest to find ways for me, but they are also cash-strapped themselves.
  • The program that I applied to (CIEE) has me on a waitlist for scholarship money, so I don’t know if I will get anything from them.
  • I also saved money myself, about 3,000, but had to use all of it to go to Ghana this summer when my grandmother passed away.

So I’m resorting to the internet for help. I’m the only one on my trip (I’m going through CIEE because my uni doesn’t have a program for Brazil) who isn’t going to a well-funded Ivy League or University of California school, so I don’t have much to fall back on. My parents are also struggling financially (especially after my grandma’s funeral) and paying my sister’s tuition (usually they don’t pay mine since I get scholarships). 

I need your help! I specifically need to go because:

  • I’m doing research for my senior thesis on black women’s organizing in Brazil.
  • Salvador, Bahia has a wealth of primary and secondary sources that will help with that research.
  • I can finish the large bulk of my degree in Latin American studies there.
  • It also helps that it is a majority poc city in a majority poc state. 


But this would help immensely with my future goals too: I want to go to grad school and do Brazilian studies.

Please donate! I have lots of prizes for people who donate:

  • $10: a personalized thank you email, digital photo, and the url to my study abroad blog. 
  • $15: a digital copy of a photo zine based on my travels and observations in Brazil (PDF format, will be sent out in September), and the url to my study abroad blog. - 30 dollars: two postcards sent (in March and May) from Bahia! 
  • $50: Detailed, monthly e-mail updates (5 total), and one postcard from Bahia. 
  • $100: Skype date! Connect with me in real time and listen to my stories. Plus, a neat souvenir and a physical version of my zine.


I also can do stuff for your organization, including giving talks and mentoring, if you’re in one and have some many to spare!

I have until December 5th to raise this money, so please help me! Besides the academic benefits, I rarely see other black woc go abroad at my uni, and I don’t think it’s fair that other people get to go abroad because they can take a subsidized trip to Europe and I’m not interested in Europe.

Even if you can’t donate, please pass this around! The more, the merrier. Every little bit counts! Thank you! 

Cassie has been a badass tumblr friend of mine for years, and I’m so excited for her! Contribute if you can!

from cassie:

In my head, I’m trying to figure out what separates potential with missteps from shitty persons who are not worth it. Do I have more patience with Azealia because she sticks up for cis-black girls, even as she shits on trans* folk in her lyrics? What does that say about me, even as I am critical of her as I listen to her music? Do you see something “feminist” in the production of Grimes’ albums or her interviews? Is that why you’re not about to write her off yet? Is our willingness to wait and give them a chance due to them having the potential (and actually becoming) really big things? Do we think that they will listen to us as they are smaller, so we can influence them as they get bigger? 

I’m not so sure. Is potential what saves these two from being written off?

okay you’re right she does have three albums, but i suppose i’m pointing more to the fact that she’s only been releasing music for two years (versus madonna 1983, gwen stefani 1992, etc).

i think those are really good questions, and i wish i had more answers. an example of the “smaller” band: earlier this year i started listening to a band from new brunswick who sing in franglais/shiac, loved them, and then a few months later came across a poster of the three white girls in the band wearing “war paint” and feathers. i decided i was done. i emailed them, messaged them, they responded defensively - i.e. the “i’m sorry you were offended” non-apology - but the photo is no longer on their facebook page or website. and at least i told them why they were losing a fan.

in the case of grimes, maybe it’s partially because i’ve met claire, have been to her shows, have interviewed her. she’s not an unattainable rock star (yet). i like what she has to say in response to male journalists who have described her as “intentionally cutesy” because she’s a small woman with a lisp and a high-pitched voice. i like how she brings up gender in a smart and frank way, as opposed to a marketing ploy à la “girl power!” as an empty shell. as someone who has been alienated/pissed off in music scenes (as a concert-goer, as a music journalist, in punk & indie rock scenes) it is refreshing to see someone whose music i enjoy also discuss these things frankly.

and maybe that’s why i expect more of her, because i know she is smart. because i feel like if she heard these concerns, she might seriously take them into consideration. maybe it’s because i am waiting to fully be able to be call myself a “fan” of people who make things i enjoy, by people i want to be friends with. maybe you and i are looking for people who remind us of ourselves? i know it’s unrealistic to expect per but it is so so endlessly frustrating to constantly be disappointed by people a) doing shitty things and b) responding to criticisms about those shitty things in defensive ways.