pride in quebec city this weekend. madonna performing here for the first time ever. fighting the desire to stay inside and cocoon or go out and flirt. hating the feeling/questions of am i read as queer am i ever fucking read as queer does it matter if i am read as queer anyway. getting dressed was a real real battle today and you can still see how uncertain i feel in the tension in my body in that photo. never satisfied with how i feel betrayed by my body.